I am 34 years old and only just beginning
to gain a sense of my own power as a woman.
I has been a long hard road. Having been a victim of childhood sexual abuse, and the child of an alcoholic certainly didn't help.
I have been struggling with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome for many years now. I have suffered from anxiety attacks and several nervous breakdowns. If it wasn't for the fact that I am a mother I don't think I would have survived. I have learned so much along the way. It may sound corny but you really do have to learn to love yourself!!!! I couldn't possibly stress this enough. Not just to be proud of your accomplishments or talent but to love who you are as a human being.
At this point in my life I absolutely have to deal with the fact that I was sexually abused as a child. You don't have nightmares for years for no reason, or flashbacks, or develop post traumatic stress syndrome, suffer from anxiety attacks, severe deppression, dissasociation, just plain generalized fear! Sometimes I can't even answer the phone, I have not driven a car in years, some days I can't even leave the house! The way it has affected my personal realtionships with men has been disasterous, but I am really trying this time.
The web and my page has been a good outlet for me, I know I am not alone and others have faced these same issues and survived, I know that even though I am/was damaged I am not crazy and at this particular moment I feel worthy of the air I breath, and the food I eat, and the hot water I use with a really long shower.
My favorite expressions lately have been ...
How are you? GOOD ENOUGH!
and when I begin to drown in the bottomless pit of despair I just repeat over and over I am still breathing, I am still breathing........
|#Survivors On the Net|
|The Healing Woman Home Page|
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|Exploring Women's Concerns - Voices of Women Online / VOWworld|
|Post Traumatic Stress Resources Web Page|
|Survivors of Abuse|
|Posttraumatic Stress Disorder|
|Help Yourself Grow & Be Happy|
|Bair PMS Center Home Page|
|Wing of Madness: A Depression Guide|
|Out Of the Blue|
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